Slava Mogutin: I never experienced homophobia in my everyday life, except that once I was bashed in Gorky Park for having long hair and too many earrings to count. When I moved to Moscow as a teenager, I quickly discovered an exciting and vibrant underground gay scene which exploded after homosexuality was decriminalized in 1993. It was a euphoric fleeting moment of freedom, and I still remember that time with a sense of nostalgia. Things unraveled when I started writing on gay issues, came out publicly and outed several prominent public figures, including the notorious Russian right-wing politician Vladimir Zhirinovsky, who once offered me the job of his press secretary. I was charged with several criminal offenses, from “malicious hooliganism with exceptional cynicism and extreme insolence” and “inflaming social, national, and religious division” to “propaganda of brutal violence, psychic pathology, and sexual perversions.” (via Slava’s homoerotic protest photography | Dazed Digital)
I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately, so ‘reflection’ was a very fitting theme for this week. I often compare my life to other’s or think that I am not on the right path and sometimes my anxiety can get very overwhelming. But then I get high in a hot tub and take an awesome shower (in a shower I don’t have to hunch over in to get wet #winning) and cry all night and the next morning I’m able to see the silver linings again. Know that everybody is just stumbling through the best they possibly can. And that I’m possibly not the most absolute awkward person in the entire universe.
You are definitely not the most awkward person in the entire universe. I am certain of that - i’m also certain that there are only a few things in life that a really good shower and an even better cry can’t fix. We are all in this together, just muddling through to the otherside - wherever that is, but pictures like this certainly inspire me. I love your body in the water, the reflection of the bathroom on the shower door - but i really really love the image of your hand pressed up against the glass.